Posts Tagged ‘femboy blog’

Originally posted on Yin Xiu Yi (尹秀伊):

Last Saturday was the happiest of the week because I met new friends in an Asian restaurant. They are all Filipinos and they work as singers/musicians at Asia Table. I was so happy because I find it really hard to find fellow “Pinoys” here in Hangzhou. My new friends are so nice and thoughtful. We spent more time hanging out that evening and they decided to play with make-up and fortunately, I was chosen as the model. Look at these:

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Pre-femboy era:

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Femboy era:

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So it’s 3AM and i’m still up. I hate this feeling. I’ve been going around in circles over this one guy for over 5 years. I’ve been away in China for a few years but every time I’m in the Philippines, we always find time to see each other. It’s cruel because it hurts but it’s ok because it feels good, too. There are topics that I never discuss with anyone else but with him and there are types of conversations that only take place between the two us because we understand each other very well. We are so much alike in many ways, have similar views in life, similar ways of resolving issues, and same interests. I know he knows how much I like him but it’s evident that he is not interested in me THAT way because he is not into femboys (I am quite sure of that) and I can’t do anything about that. Every time I make the decision to let go and move on, he does something (probably unintentionally) that will make me change my mind and go on in circles again. I can’t blame him. It must be me. How do you let go of someone you never had?